feeling better

I was told by my physical therapist to tilt my pelvis forward and it will take pain off my back. So I started doing that and immediately my low back pain decreased.  So I am feeling more positive spiritually by knowing that Jesus blood was shed for me and by knowing I don't have to live under condemnation.   I am completely forgiven and ongoing being saved too.

Living in a continuous flow of grace is amazing. It's like always being washed and clean and being free to live and do good without feeling that I have a lifetime of failure behind me.

just go for it

I've decided to do the body for life 12-week challenge and push hard to get in shape physically.  So now I am going to fight thru the pain and get myself up on the ledge and get going on my path.

Spiritually I am relying on being the righteousness of God in Christ.  I don't have to do anything but accept that the work has been done for me.
I declare peace and prosperity over my three adult children.

I have to just go for it.

utter madness

i was attempting to move things forward at work and out of nowhere a shovel hit me on the back of the head-or that's how it felt. I was stunned and again made aware of how important it is to get off this iceberg before it melts.

I have important things to do and I'm afraid that if I don't jump off this "seemingly safe place" and throw myself at the mercy of the current, God's destiny and my own ingenuity that I will not achieve my full potential-which is my legacy for my life.

I want to be treated with mercy and not dealt the impossible hand of needing to be perfect and so I ask of those who seem to despise me and hate me to treat me with the same mercy that you desire for yourselves.
I, like you, have a right to be myself and fully live without apology and with grace for my failings.

feeling hopeless

trying to swim forward this week but basically swimming against a current that is taking me out to sea.  I feel like I can't get traction to move ahead.