the crucible

I feel like there are 2 things that are bringing hidden impurities in me to the surface.  One is the recent ramp up of the therapy is causing me great physical pain.  The other is an encounter when I was taking a self-defense class. The instructor did a pose which had thrown me into a tailspin-PTSD of early memories-a witness to violence.
I haven't been able to quiet the turmoil-but that's probably ok-I believe that it's surfacing things that must be scooped out so that I can walk down the road without a target on me, without a landing spot for evil to take me out.

paying off debt

I got a settlement for a car accident and i've been able to pay off half of my outstanding debt. It is a relief to feel like I may be able to financially be prepared to move on to another space.

step off here

In scuba, to enter the water off a boat, you take one step off and then you are in a land-underwater-that is very different with different laws that apply.
This is my journey in finding how to step off the boat of my current landscape and into a foreign landscape where I'll make my new life.

I'll be able to travel and breath and live the life that I was intended for.